Resisting anti-Asian hate, unlearning internalized racism, raising awareness

Esther Leung-Kong and her family standing in solidarity with local residents at the Chinatown Memorial Plaza.

Since the pandemic began, there has been a surge of Anti-Asian hate crimes in Canada. In Vancouver alone these hate crimes rose 717 percent compared to the previous year.

This is the highest spike since my family immigrated to Canada from Hong Kong when I was nine years old in 1990.

Upon hearing the news of the Atlanta shooting (on March 16, 2021 – eight victims, including six Asian women – my heart sank and my whole being responded in a way that I can only describe as trauma-triggered. This could have been my mom, aunties, sisters or grandmothers.

In the weeks to follow, I began to tear up whenever I see Asian people at a Chinese food court or Korean market to shop. What if someone comes in with a gun and begins to shoot?

Right now, our Asian community is hurting and traumatized, especially Asian women. There is a collective outcry against the recent rise of Anti-Asian hate crimes and also for the many years of being invisible or to coin the term a ‘perpetual foreigner.’

Internalized racism 

I began to process internally and recount my own racist incidents throughout the years. These incidents range from blatant racism such as elementary school classmates calling me “chink” to microaggression of a well-meaning (white) lady asking me three times why my English is so good.

Even when I attended a Christian university, classmates would often say how I and my Asian roommate look exactly alike, excusing themselves from their mistake of mixing up our names frequently. Microaggression is a form of ‘othering’ that makes me feel like I don’t really fit in or will ever belong in mainstream society.

As an Asian woman, my healing journey began by processing my own ‘internalized racism’ and growing up as an immigrant child through a soul care lens. Internalized racism is the acceptance of dominant society’s racist views while devaluing one’s own culture. I have had to unlearn the notion of white superiority; that western cultural standards are the best way and everyone else needs to fit in.

If I truly believe that we are all wonderfully made and equal in the eyes of our creator God, I need to uncolonize my mindset and celebrate my own culture, language and traditions.

Light in the darkness

In light of this challenging time, I have begun to see some of my Asian women friends and family start to openly share, perhaps for the first time, about their own experiences with racism.

This gives me hope because sharing our stories can be healing. But at the same time, it saddens me to see similar stories of racism for the Asian diaspora that spans across country lines (the United States and Canada), such as being called racial slurs.

I have also been encouraged to see a movement of courage and boldness in activism and raising our voices, especially going against the notion that Asian women were supposed to be ‘submissive’ and never cause any trouble. More than ever, I have suddenly felt more solidarity and connectedness with my Asian sisters and community everywhere.

Our stories matter, our voices matter! Our leadership needs to become visible in the general Christian community.

For my own family, we have done several things together to help teach our children about the problem of racism and to raise awareness of the issue. As a family with three children, we prayed together and this became a teachable moment about racism.

As an act to raise awareness we made signs and went to the local Chinatown in solidarity against anti-Asian racism/hate crimes. It is never too early to teach them about these challenging topics. There is hope in the next generation.

How can I be an ally?

  • “Quick to listen and slow to speak” (James 1:19). Listen, lament, learn humbly, and empathize with the pain of the traumatized community. Sometimes unnecessary advice or insensitive words, even if it is unintentional, might do more harm than bring about healing.
  • Educate yourself and take the time to learn about the history of Anti-Asian racism in North America, the model minority myth, internalized racism, and many more related topics.
  • Check in on your Asian friends, brothers and sisters to show that you care and are praying for them. Please don’t demand they give you a response or be offended when you don’t get the response you expected. When people are in pain, they need time to process their own grief and to process it in their own ways.  Show your care but also give us space. 
  • Amplify Asian (and BIPOC) voices: Encourage Christian organizations, churches, companies, businesses, and social media networks to invite them as speakers, worship leaders, teachers, leadership positions, and preachers. Read books by Asian authors. Though beware of tokenism, instead focus on building genuine relationships and allyship.
  • Actively engage in antiracism work, raise awareness, have the courage to speak up against those who are making inappropriate comments or jokes whether it is online or in real person. Encourage churches to have discussions and teach on racism and misogyny.
  • Report anti-Asian hate incidents
  • Process and deconstruct your own hidden racism, prejudices, bias and stereotypes. Even if you have not actively contributed to racist acts, there may be hidden attitudes you may possess. There is always room to grow.

May God illuminate us in this inward journey of reflection and unlearning harmful ways together with humility.

“And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.” (Micah 6:8)

Wonderfully Made 奇妙的傑作 tells “my story of struggles with fitting in as a child immigrating to a new country.”

Esther Leung-Kong is a Vancouver based Chinese Canadian author that aims to educate children on diversity, immigrant struggles and cultural representation through her bilingual book Wonderfully Made 奇妙的傑作 for kids 5 to 10 years old. 

Esther’s passion includes advocating for justice & compassion both locally and globally through her mission work at the non-profit organization Culture Regeneration Research Society and volunteering with the local grassroots charity Vancouver Urban Ministries, leadership development for young people, and inspiring others through music.

Throughout the years she has been raising awareness among the Chinese immigrant community about colonial history and treatment of Indigenous people.

She attends Fraser Lands Church, with her husband Pastor Lawrence Kong.

This comment first appeared on the ChristianWeek site and is re-posted by permission of the author.


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1 comment for “Resisting anti-Asian hate, unlearning internalized racism, raising awareness

  1. The solution starts in each person’s heart and each person’s mirror, a commitment to take personal responsibility for how we view and treat people. Christians are commanded to model this, a la the Good Samaritan, to realize that ‘neighbour’ has no ethnic, religious, political or social limitations. Everyone is my neighbour.

    My neighbour can come from any culture, speak any language, practice any religion, have any political or social view. It does not matter. He or she is my neighbour. And as Christ has taught in Matthew 25, however we treat one another is how we treat Him. So the solution to all racism begins with the church and every member of the church, since of us is a part of the body of Christ.

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